I didn’t mean to submit to flesh,
That cold night I would always regret.
I didn’t see it coming,
But when it came I could not resist.
The temptation was so tense,
That I allowed it be.
He had come looking for you,
Maybe what he wanted me to believe,
But the truth is he came for me.

I could have shut the door after I had disclosed your absence,
I could have walked back to my room without a knowledge of a thing.
Maybe he would have walked home dejected,
But I allowed him in,
To spend some little time,
So his coming wouldn’t go a waste,
But it all happened.
I still can’t figure out what really went wrong,
His hands caressed my hairless body,
And I could not stop him as my breath became heavy.

Though I would have wanted to,
But your touch I have missed for weeks.
I totally let the rag up the table,
Not resisting its dirty evil touch.
I know I am no longer worthy of being called your mate,
I know what great mistake I have made,
A sin that keeps tormenting me.
I hope I will be forgiven.
I have sinned against you,
And against my creator.